My thoughts right now are driving me nuts. What to do? Where will I go? Both physically, mentally and emotionally. Do I have the right people in my life? Am I running my life in a bad way? How can I make this new year different? Better? Life changing? So many more things that shouldn’t be publicized, yet I feel should be. That if I put them out there my answer will be clearer. But I’m not ready for that I think. I’m not willing to let myself do that. I’m fearful. Fearful of my past and of my future outcome. God, makes me sick just thinking about it. Course my friend says that those are butterflies.

One day it’ll all be ok. One day it will fall into place happily for myself. Until then… what do I do?