Dream: I want to lose weight. I want to be cheerful. I want to move away. I want to have a job. I want to follow my schedule alone. I want to be rich. I want all clothes that I try on to fit my body the way I want them to. I want someone to tell me how to fix my problems.

Depression: I will sit here being depressed about my size and looks. I will not find solutions for my problems. I won’t find a job to have my own money. I will do everything for everybody else but me.

Daily: I will wake up. Take my medicine and medication to make me a better person physically and mentally. I will exercise to get my stamina and energy up as well as to be proud of my body image. I will shower and dress my best. I will eat a healthy breakfast. I will go to classes where I am interested in what I am learning and trying to let it sink in and help me on my way to a degree. I will search for a job til I find one willing to let me be a part of their team and contribute the best way I know how. I will help take care of my great grandma while doing homework and reading. I will enjoy dinner with the family and then work on my wheel, letting me decompose as well as rebuild. Then I will put in a movie, relax and go to bed at a decent hour to let my body rest, to help me have a better day tomorrow.