You know, I try to do the little things that are supposed to pass on good will and happiness. For example, letting cars get into my lane during traffic, smiling at someone as they pass you by, hold a door open for someone a little farther behind you. And even though it is good just to do these little things for no added benefit, I wonder when will my good karma kick in? lol 

Now when I have this discussion with some religious friends they tell me, “well, going to heaven will be the end result.” And I tell them, “if God thinks that me going to heaven is the source of my good karma, he is sadly mistaken.” I know it’s a horrible thing to say, and don’t get me wrong I’m not looking for materialistic bliss. I’m just looking for… Bliss.

It seems like darts keep getting thrown in my directions. No job call-backs, no understanding, no help, no faith in me, the list may go on and on. I’m sure this is how many people feel in this world, and it is a stupid complaint to put out there. But when will everything be worth it? When will it all fall into place? When will we know why we are going through all these hard times? When will we see the benefit from holding everyone up when all you want to do is fall down, or going through that horrible relationship? 

I’m not religious but I would like to think that I have faith that everything will turn out. I try to make every day count, try and take advantage of every small moment I’m given, and try to be positive even in the most harmful of situations. Yes, yes God only gives you what he or she knows you can handle. Well, I can obviously handle just about anything so WOULD YOU CARE TO GIVE ME A BREAK? 

Bliss is all I’m asking for. Some good karma.